Dear Girl in a Mixed-up Mind 


Hey beauts! Yes I know it’s probably been about a million years since the last time I blogged and so much has been going on! I thought “hey…why not tell you guys through one of my famous dear letters?” And that if someone is struggling like I was and am , that maybe this letter can help you out just a tad bit. I also want to thank a person who inspired me to write this letter & reached out to me.

Dear Girl in a Mixed-up Mind,

It’s not easy, this thing they call life. I remember not having to have a single worry in the world, just having to dread your younger sisters running in and jumping on you in the morning. Close your eyes. Now you’re an adult. You’re here, it’s real. I remember they didn’t teach you this in school. They didn’t tell you that adulting would be like arts and crafts time. I wasn’t prepared. I still am not prepared. I am 23. I know that must mean that I have it all together but I really don’t. I know how to tie my shoes, I know how to be a good role model, I know how to write an essay ( when I like the topic), but school/parents/friends don’t prepare you for your own personal journey ahead.

Dear Girl in a Mixed-up Mind,

I know you’re tired. You’re stressed with school. You’re mentally and physically exhausted. No one can really tell and know how you are feeling except for yourself. When they ask you what’s wrong you simply state, ” just stressed out “. But they don’t know that you just bombed a test for the first time in forever, that you’re having relationship troubles and don’t know where to turn, that you know you won’t be able to enjoy your weekend because you start placement Monday, so your anxiety is eating you alive. But did you personally look at the big picture? Did you get up this morning and look in the mirror? Did you take a deep breath, throw all your worries in the garbage and think “today’s the day I make a change ?”. Sometimes we need to be reminded of that. Sometimes we need to take a deep breath, let out all our worries and just give ourselves a pat on the back. It’s okay to fail, it’s okay to make mistakes, it’s okay to live. We are so hard on ourselves that before we know it, we will be gone. I want to look at the bigger picture. That I went back to school after taking a year off to continue my education. That after school, I will get a career even if it takes me a little bit and you know what? That’s okay. 


Dear Girl in a Mixed-Up Mind,

Did you laugh today? Did you reach out to your friends and acknowledge every aspect and characteristic they hold? They are your support system, and will always be there for you even through these hard times. Reach out to them. Tell them what is going on in that brain of yours. I’m sure if you state “I’m crazy”, they will want to be crazy with you. They will want to endure that with you.  Don’t lose touch with them, I know they live far away but it’s only a car ride away. It’s life, but you make it work. 

I know you stopped going to the gym because you’re stressed out and that’s ok. So what? Take a break, figure out you and your present life, figure out your short and long term goals, figure out YOU. I know you’re hard on yourself because you’re gaining some weight, so what. What are a few pounds here and there? When you are ready, you will go back and push yourself like you used to. But right now, it’s not the right time and I think you know that. You need to have the proper mindset, and I know you’re living in a mixed up mind now. That won’t last forever. Take a few deep breaths right now, run a bath, play some of your favourite music and calm down. It will be okay, it’s always okay, even if it doesn’t seem like it at that moment.

Life is precious. Life is eventful. Life is unexpected. Life is a journey, it’s YOUR journey. Mixed up or not you are here, breathing and alive.

Tomorrow is a new day, decide what changes you want to make and start making that progress. It only gets better if you do something about it. Don’t worry Girl in a Mixed-Up Mind, you’re not the only one.

Summer Makeup Tutorial featuring LaurensLipGlossary! 


Hello, gorgeous!

My name is Lauren Will! I’m a licensed esthetician, fashion lover, and the girl behind LaurensLipGlossary.com! My blog is getting quite the makeover and won’t be back online for another week, so this does make for the perfect time to do some guest blogging.

I started following Alyssa’s blog earlier this year. As someone who also struggles with anxiety, I felt so connected to her and what she had to say. Another thing we have in common? We are both passionate about beauty and makeup!
One of the reasons I love makeup so much is that it can change the way I feel entirely, even if I’m having the most brutal day! It can be as simple as putting on my favorite lipstick, taking a breath, and reminding myself that I’m a boss bitch ;)! Seeya later, anxious thoughts!
In Vancouver where I live, it’s cold and rainy today. No need to worry though, this makeup look has got me feeling anything but gloomy! The bronzey eyes and coral lip are giving me major summer vacay vibes.

KEY PRODUCTS
EYES
MAC Paint Pot “Soft Ocre” – This will make sure those shadows stay put all day long.

Artist Couture Diamond Glow Powder “Lickable”

MAC Eyeshadow “Saddle”

FACE
Loreal Lumi Foundation – I mix in a few drops of the Loreal Lumi Liquid Glow N201 for an ultra dewy complexion.

Make Up For Ever Pro Sculpting Duo “02”

LIPS

Clarins Lip Perfecting Base – I find when I use this, the lipstick placed overtop always looks extra pigmented and stays put way longer!

NYX Ombre Lip Duo “Peaches and Cream”


Does makeup also have a way of changing your mood? Let me know what you think in the comments!
Thanks again to Alyssa for having me! You can find me on Instagram (@LaurensLipGlossary) and my blog, LaurensLipGlossary.com!


 Xoxo Lauren Will

Hair, Skin & Nails; Does it really work? 


Hey my beauts, I know I know, where the hell have I been? I appolgize and thank you for being patient with me! I have been super busy and super stressed with school lately, so I had to take a little break from my blogging to ensure that all my school work was done first, even though I would much rather be blogging! I hope you are all doing well ad enjoying the beautiful weather these days! I took a break from my studying last night and decided to catch some rays in the sun… so nice. I wanted to write and put this blog up for a while now so here it goes! I know that I would’ve loved to read a blog like this if there was one at the time when I was purchasing and deciding to buy this product.  However, I decided to take my chances and thought , “hey why the hell not, go big or go home right?”. I decided to try the much raved about “Hair Skin and Nails supplements by It Works.  This is originally supposed to be taken for three months but I decided to ddo a trial run and try it out for just the one month. So if you are looking at getting the general just of the product you have come to the right place, however, you will not see the three month results, only one month. So I got introduced to this product by the lovely Kelsey Nagel, who is an It works consultant, and she was great at reaching out to me and offering me an amazing deal! Highly recommend going through her, as you can find her on Facebook! I recieved an amazing offer, as the hair suppliment usually retails for around $93.00 but I was a product tester and purchased it for around $60.00 after taxes. This program is a supposed to be a 90 day program but I only tried it out for the month like I had mentioned before. My supplements came once a month and then I was set for the month. The only issue I had was they had missed some of my mailing information, so I had to wait a bit longer for my supplements, but then they finally came which was great! I then reached back out to Kelsey and told her I was extremely interested and curious about trying this product out, so she easily placed my order for me, which was awesome.  Kelsey was extremely supportive through the whole process of the month, asking how the supplement was going for me and what not, which I thought was super nice and generous.

Nails

When I first received the pills, they are a brown colour and they are huge. They remind me of horse pills, but I am used to taking lots of pills and big ones might I add, so this did not bother me whatsoever. If you are not a pill person, then I highly recommend not purchasing these, as you will have a hard time getting them down. The taste is not that great, to be honest, but I mean, since when do pills taste good?! Never. The taste reminds me of dog food and was quite gross taking down. But after a while, you get used to it.  When I started taking the pills I had just gotten my nails done, and I thought, “wow, perfect timing, now I can witness my nails growing out fast while taking these supplements if they do work!”. Trust me guys, when I say this stuff works, it works. I will show you a picture of my nails shortly after a week of using the product. Mind you all nails grow, but I noticed mine was growing exceptionally fast.


 ( Look how fast my nails have grown in slightly over a week….insane)

The only piece of advice I have to say about getting your nails done before you use this supplement is to be ready to get them filled asap… that is all. I did not mind it one bit, as I got to see first hand the process of my nails. I eventually removed my nails and of course, they were out of shape after having gel nails on them. I kept taking the supplements every day and noticed that my nails were not so brittle as when I first took off the gel nails and started to look a whole lot healthier, which was amazing. So for sure a 10/10 when it comes to nails and having them grow and become way healthier.

Skin

Now shall we move onto my skin? I did not take a picture of my skin which I should have but I have acne prone skin and always have had that. I did not have high hopes about this clearing my face but boy did it ever. Mind you, I was eating healthy and drinking lots of water which improved the effects. You are not going to magically get clear skin by taking these supplements and eating garbage… it just doesn’t work like that.   I usually get a lot of acne on my chin for some reason, and after taking the supplements for more than a week, I noticed a great improvement in the quality of my skin.  My pimples started clearing up and my face started to glow. I felt healthier too.

Hair 

Now moving onto the fun part. This is the main reason why I chose to start taking these supplements I mean, who does not want the long beautiful hair am I right? This was the make or break for me, and I really wanted to see if I would notice a difference in my hair. I have tried numerous products on my hair and have tried taking vitamins and what not, but nothing has really grasped my attention until I started taking these pills.  You basically take two a day and then that’s it!  I did this for the month and started noticing improvements right away in the quality and length of my hair. In aout two week, I started noticing a difference , because my hair used to be brittle. After taking these pills my hair started to feel more fuller and not as brittle anymore, more healthier. I will share with you guys three progress pictures, keeping in mind this is only for the month, not the whole three months.

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(You can clearly see the hair growth and how much my hair has grown from March 14th til April 14th).

Overall, I was completely impressed with the product “Hair Skin and Nails”, and would not lie to you guys when I emphasize and say that it really does work wonders. I absolutely loved the product, and would highly recommend reaching out to Kelsey Nagel over Facebook, about trying this product out for yourselves.

I am curious to see if you guys purchase the supplement, please let me know if you do try it out, as I would love to know how it worked for you! If you have any questions feel free to ask Kelsey or I and we will be glad to help you out! Thanks for stopping by loves, enjoy the product!

Hello Summer 2017! Featuring Shannon Wilkerson xo

Summer is fast approaching and if you’re like a lot of women, the moment you saw a sign that the weather was changing from winter to spring you immediately started to work on your “summer body“. You started eating burgers without the bun and having just one cookie instead of 6 ( or is that just me?). You may have even tried a body wrap, The Green Smoothie Cleanse, which is amazing or some other quick remedy to get your body “snatched” for summer. Some of us got gym memberships. Oh how I dislike the gym, but I suffer through it to look great on the beach. 

There’s nothing wrong with being the best possible you, but who determines what that looks like and who’s to say you’re not already your best you? Why do we torture ourselves with the worlds standard of beauty instead of loving who we are exactly how we are? Maybe you don’t need to drop 30 pounds. Maybe you’re perfectly healthy the way that you are now and isn’t that what’s important? I know Skinny Minnies who can’t walk up a flight of stairs without becoming out of breath. Again, there is absolutely nothing wrong with self improving. Do what makes you feel good, but do it for the right reasons. It should always be about you, how you feel and your health, not what the world or even your family feels you should do or be. 
Regardless of season I’m always very conscious of what looks good on my body. This is even more important during the summer because we naturally dress less. It’s hot! You may just need to find clothes that flatter your body so that you feel more confident about your look when you present yourself to the world. You may have the perfect legs for mini skirts and hot pants as my mom calls them, but maybe you don’t. Maybe you would feel more comfortable in a long flowing skirt that covers your legs. Or maybe you’re comfortable with what others may call your imperfections and put the hot pants on anyway. As long as you look and feel good, continue to create your own slay. Just make sure you’re summer looks are what really looks great on you! 


Don’t put a lot of pressure on yourself to fit someone else’s mold just because summer is approaching. Be the best you yeah, but do it for you! If you like makeup, put some on! Try out new hairstyles and buy a cute summer time outfit. Heck try one of those monthly subscription companies that send you clothes and shoes like Stitch Fix, Gwynnie Bee, Justfab ect. Step out with your confidence on full display. Head out to the cook out, pool party, day party ect and enjoy a freeing no pressure summer! 


Shannon Wilkerson, Founder

The Shanni Wilke Company 

& We Shine 

http://www.weshinenetwork.com 

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Thanks again Shannon for being apart of my opening summer blogs! Be sure to follow Shannon up above and support her journey through blogging 🙂 Be sure to follow my other social media accounts to stay updated with the latest blogs ! Xo

Most Embarrassing Moments Part 3


Hey my beauts, I hope you are all having a wonderful Friday so far! I know I am super excited for the weekend, as I am back in school now. I have been in school for about a week now for the Social Service Intensive Program. I really am loving this course, but as you know, intensive means a shit ton of work crammed in a short amount of time, unfortunately, so that is overwhelming to take in. I am sure I will get used to it, just not used to sitting in a very small classroom that resembles high school, I am used to sitting in a huge lecture hall where all you have to do is listen and take notes. College is much different than that. I am expected to engage in the material and actually learn hands on, so it has been a huge change for me. So I have been trying to balance blogging as well in my spare time so bare with me here. I thought for this blog, why not have some laughter to start off this weekend with a bang? I remember my previous embarrassing moments blog post and it was a real hit, everyone seemed to enjoy making fun of me….. no, I am kidding! But it’s always fun to share a good laugh once in a while.  So without further or do let’s jump into the times when life hated me!

Let’s stick to baseball bats

I believe I was around 12 or so maybe even younger and I was at my babysitter’s house while my mom was at work after school. I was with my cousin, sister, and the babysitter’s son. So we were dumb and young, and thought “hey, why not play baseball with a rock and tomato stick?“. Cause that is the thing to do these days right? Ya okay… So it’s my turn to pitch the rock, fantastic. I am pitching the rock to my cousin and low and behold, I did not move away far enough. My cousin, determined to wack this rock so far decides to smoke my eye with the stick instead. Doesn’t he run back home, everyone goes inside and I am left bawling. The end of the story results in me missing the African Lion Safari Trip with my class at the time and having to stay home. I also tried to convince my mom I couldn’t see well from the accident, as I really wanted glasses. I didn’t get glasses, but I give myself an A for trying

 Fire Hazards

When I was in sixth grade, I had severe OCD. I mean we are talking I could not touch light switches was hands that were slightly wet, or I would call my mom at work explaining I was burning the house down. So one day before school, I decided to make toast, nothing new, and accidentally left the toaster on…… dear lord help us. So my OCD was very bad that day and I could not remember for the life of me if I had unplugged the toaster or not that morning. I literally was almost sweating and I could hear my heart racing.  I finally got the balls to ask my teacher if it was okay if I went home at lunch time to check to see if my toaster was unplugged so I would not burn the house down. Needless to say, the house wasn’t burnt down and the toaster was unplugged.

Independent at the Gym

So I decided to join a gym… surprise! I thought to myself, “I got this, I can go by myself, I mean, the equipment is easy enough to learn right?“….. maybe for a normal person, not Lyss! So I was at the gym one fine day and decided to try out some new equipment as it was leg day. I went to another section of the gym, where I have never been before, and literally tried out some new things. I saw a machine that I was kind of familiar with, as it looked easy enough. Do you think it was easy for me? Absolutely not. I think it was called a leg press or something, don’t quote me on that though. So I was at the gym trying out this new machine and then I started getting into some problems. I then realized, okay…. I literally have no idea how to work this machine and there are no instructions on it…great! So I decided to pull out my phone and start YouTubing and googling how to work this god damn machine. Here I am thinking I am being so sneaky, meanwhile some broad was watching me the whole entire time I was YouTubing and watching this video on silent. She walks over to me, looking at me like I have three heads, and asked, “do you need some help I saw you on Youtube“. I then had to explain my situation and it was literally so simple how to work this machine. I was so embarrassed! I am looking up videos before I go to the gym next time, and not at the gym.

“Don’t even ask”

I was at my old place for this story and was still living with my mom and dad…holy that was years ago! I am pretty sure we were watching a movie as it was late out, and I eventually passed out watching this thing…no surprise.  So the movie is over, my mom wakes me up and states, “Alyssa go to bed”. So I wake up, didn’t even know I was awake, I thought I was still dreaming, and slowly walk to my bedroom….or so I thought. I went into the laundry room, opened up the trash can, peed in it, and just sat there. My mom walks in startled and wonders what the hell I am doing, I look at her, give her the hand and state, “Don’t even ask”, and I pull up my pants and head to bed. Sleep tight!

I didn’t know where I was

So this lovely story was just last year when I went on a trip with my boyfriend to Mexico. We, of course, went out pretty much every night to a bar that was around our resort. I was pretty intoxicated, to say the least, and we went abouts on our way to the club. So I was having a great time and then BAM… don’t remember the rest of the night. The next morning, my boyfriend informs me that I was standing in the middle of the dance floor, by myself, not even dancing, just looking around… cause that’s attractive. I was so embarrassed but let out a giant laugh because I can just picture how stupid I looked. For sure that Mexico water did me in.

I thought my boyfriend was a wolf

Okay okay, this is honestly one of my absolute favourites. I was at my apartment building sleeping away, and it was probably in the early morning. I was literally having one of the worst dreams ever and thought I was getting attacked by a wolf no joke. So what’s a girl going to do when she is getting attacked by a wolf? Obviously, punch it hello. Thanks to my lovely boyfriend being right there I punched him square in the face. I woke up immediately as he yells “what the FUCK”. I thought for sure I was getting sent to the couch.

Tatas for Everyone

I was at my friend’s house for a sleepover with one of my other friends. I decided the night before to purchase this really cute shirt from lasenza, it was like a crop sweatshirt, I don’t know but it was adorable. So it is night time now and we are all fast asleep. Morning comes and I realize it’s kind of breezy in the room. I usually sleep with my hands over my head just because it’s super comfy. Well arn’t the girls out for the world to see. I could not stop laughing, from this day I will not wear crop tops to bed at sleepovers.

I hope you beauts had a good laugh out of these funny and embarrassing stories. I know at the time I hated life, now they are hilarious and I laugh at myself. Let me know what you guys thought of them and comment down below what embarrassing moments you were a part of! Be sure to follow my other social media accounts located at the top of my home page for more updates on the latest blog posts!

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A Hint of Gold-Spring Makeup Tutorial 

Hey there my gorgeous beauts! Welcome to my channel if you are new! I decided to change things up again a bit and show you guys a makeup tutorial that I came up with! This one is inspired by spring of course, and is called “a hint of gold “. I am going to be incorporating a gorgeous purple shade by the lovely Modern Renaissance Palette, and add a hint of gold using my Naked Palette. This is a very easy tutorial and I wanted to pass on this look to you beauts! It obviously helps to add a purple top in with this look, just to complete it! Shall we get started?

Cleansed Face 


1) First ensuring that my face is completely washed and primed! My face has been hating me recently, I usually get breakouts on my chin, if you guys have any suggestions on how to get rid of that acne let me know!

Cover them pimps! 


2) Voila ! That’s a little bit better ! I did my normal everyday face routine using all of my facial makeup applicators including my lovely beauty blender! I also applied my contour and highlighter.

The Eyes 


3) Going in with my beautiful Modern Renaissance Palette , I am going in with the purple shade labeled , “Buon Fresco”, and applying this all over my entire primed lid. I am dragging this colour into the crease as well just to ensure every part of my lid is covered. Applying this to my crease as well helps the colour look more blended and not so harsh.


4) I am then going in with the lovely Naked Palette and taking the shade “Halfbaked”, and applying a small dab, literally one stroke, to the middle of my lid. This helps create the spotlight effect that I discussed in my previous blog posts and looks absolutely stunning, hence the hint of gold.



5) I am then done with the eyeshadow of this look, yes it was that easy,  and now adding a winged liner and mascara.



6) Of course, I need to add some false lashes, this is optional! I absolutely love the way of false lashes complete any look and pull it all together . I also put on my favourite lipstick ever, the NYX Cosmetics Liquid Lingerie Lipstick in the shade ” Embellishment”, and applied this all over my lips. I added a few more accessories to the look as well such as a beautiful light purple satin choker.



And voila! A gorgeous purple spring look with a hint of gold, perfect for day time and night time.


On a bad day, there’s always lipstick” 


I hope you beauts enjoyed this short makeup tutorial perfect for spring! Make sure to follow my other social media accounts located in my bio for the latest updates!


Tattoo Number Two 


Hey beauts ! Hope you are all doing well and had a fabulous weekend! I had an absolute blast this weekend as there was so much packed into one fun-filled three days. I wanted to show you guys and update you’s with what I did this Saturday ! Guys, I got my second tattoo! I wanted to give you guys a quick little update as to how it went and what the tattoo exactly looks like! So we went to St.Catharines and got it done with two of my closest and best friends in life. We all wanted matching tattoos because we are classic bitches like that.


My one friend went first cause she hates anxiously waiting which was completely fine. Hers was around 45 minutes , then it was my other friends then! They both got beautiful thigh tattoos , and I was the odd one out and chose my back tattoo. Guys …. when it was my turn I was completely freaking out! I had to have my one best friend come in with me and hold my hand….pathetic I know. Mine was around 40 minutes I would say ! It hurt so badly. Do not recommend back tattoos unless you have high pain tolerance. That is all.



The finished look was amazing. I could not have asked for anything better. It means so much to me too and that’s the thing about tattoos, the more personalized the better.  For our tattoos we all got some sort of a compass on ourselves with the saying , “no matter where”. This tattoo honestly means the world to me, not only because it was with my two best friends, but the meaning behind it.  No matter where the three of us are in the world, we will always support each other, love each other unconditionally, and cherish each others presence.  I will always cherish this tattoo, and whenever a rough day approaches, I will look in the mirror at my tattoo and instantly smile. I love my friends and this gorgeous tat.

I hope you guys enjoyed this short and sweet blog post on the newest addition to the tat family. Be sure to follow my other social media accounts located on my home page to get the latest updates!

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Social Anxiety Update ! (Post Therapy)


Hey beauts ! I have not written to you guys in a bit now describing and sharing my social anxiety progress with you’s. If you are new to my channel I have been struggling with social anxiety for a long period of time now . Recently I was involved with a social anxiety group therapy program teaching us different cognitive behavioural techniques and skills to help cope . I also had an exposure hierarchy that I was working on , where I would expose myself to my biggest fears which provoke my anxiety and trigger it . 

So it has now been approximately two months passed since I have finished my group therapy sessions and I just wanted to give you guys a little bit of an update as to how I  am doing and coping lately . A lot has been going on lately , especially this month. To my surprise I actually have been working quite a bit on my exposure hierarchy without even knowing . Not going to lie, I haven’t been quite on the ball like before planning out exposures and what is going to happen each day or what I am going to work on. Life gets in the way and that is okay. But writing this post and sharing more progress I have come to the conclusion that I have made some huge progress over the past couple of weeks. 

1) Job Interviews– On my exposure hierarchy list, I had written down that I want to remain more calm and comfortable when it comes to job interviews. Recently I had an interview , a Skype interview, which was completely new to me , on a volunteer blogging position. Of course I was psyching myself out and was debating whether just to cancel this interview or not go online. I was impressed with myself as I pushed through my nerves , and managed to attend the online interview which was 30 minutes long. The interview involved two people listening and watching me speak as they asked questions in regards to my blogging and my blogging channel. It was very easy but still nerve racking for me. So that was that ! I ended up getting the position which I was super stoked about. If some of you are curious it’s for the blogging company ” INKspire“, which I am going to start soon! If I would have let my social anxiety get the best of me , I would not have had the opportunity to get this position. I am happy I stuck to my guns! 


I also have some interviews coming up for part time jobs as I am heading back to school. This will be nerve racking for me for many reasons. Within my job now I hardly have to speak to any people aside from the mom, dad and grandparents. Now getting a “normal“job , I will have to push out of my comfort zone and associate with more people one on one. Fingers crossed everything goes okay ! I got this ! My coping statement that I often use through hard times like this is ,” you are good at interviews, you got this “. 

2) Going back to school– So as some of you may know I decided to go back to school! I applied to Mohawk college for social service work , so fingers crossed I get in! I have been wanting to do this program for a while now , so I am super excited I got the guts to jump on it! This process has not been easy. I had to inform my boss that I needed to leave and put in my two weeks as I will be going back to school. Quitting a job is never easy, especially the confrontational part about it. I would rather just send a text but we all know that’s not professional whatsoever….. sigh. But I managed to do it, and phew I am still here today , can’t win this time anxiety! I also managed to fill out my whole application without mammas help (that’s pretty big considering I hate doing school work forms). I will be attending my program hopefully next week ! I know my nerves will kick in as I will have to speak infront of people , but I know that I can do this. Just like that two minute presentation I did in group therapy. I did that , I can do this .


3) Speaking on the phone – Recently since applying to school, I have been on the phone with people trying to sort out my application. What shocked me the most was most times I did not hesitate to pick up the phone, I just went right away and did what I needed to do. I have found that speaking on the phone is not as bad as I thought , and I can do it more naturally now. Not to say the anxiety is completely gone, but I can cope and manage it better than before. 


As you can see I have been slowly working on my exposure hierarchy without really even noticing it . I think the biggest challenge for me will be school, since I was so used to have classes with friends at Brock University, that now I have to start fresh and brand new.  This will be hard for me but I am excited because I was informed there was a program you can register at Mohawk called the “Accessible learning centre”, where they accommodate your needs if you have learning disabilities or mental health issues going on. They can extend your assignments, move you to a separate room to write your exams and so forth. This honestly eases my anxiety a ton and makes me feel way more comfortable with my decision to go to Mohawk. All I have to do is just register for this program.  So that was the update that I had for you guys ! Let me know if any of you guys had tried out an anxiety group therapy program or not , I am curious how it worked or is going for you! If you have any questions in regards to this don’t hesitate to ask! I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your week, be sure to follow my other social media accounts located on my home page for the latest updates! 

Ocean Blue Makeup Tutorial


Hey beauts, hope you are all having a wonderful weekend, or should I say, had a wonderful weekend! It has been an extremely stressful week for me, so I have not been really on the ball with blogging lately, I do apologize for that and will try to pick it up again so just bare with me here! Thanks guys! I decided to throw in a makeup tutorial for today, as I have not done one in forever and wanted to change things up a bit. My sister recently gave me this beautiful Sephora blue single eyeshadow and the first thing I thought of was, “what the hell am I supposed to do with that..?”. I never really use colours as you guys know, I mostly stick to my neutrals and away we go! I came up with this beautiful look today using this ocean blue shade, I hope you guys like it ! Again, If you guys are interested in what products I use on my face, just skip back to my previous makeup tutorial posts where I go step by step on which products I use. To same time and to not repeat myself, I decided to just show you beauts my eye makeup. Shall we get started?!

  1. First, I primed my eyes with my absolute favourite eye lid primer called the “Kat Von D High Voltage Primer”, from Sephora. I am going to have to repurchase this product as I am now running super low!

2. I am now going in with the beautiful colourful glitter blue eyeshadow I think called “Curacao Punch”, and applied this with a small eyeshadow brush all over my entire lid.

3. I am then going in with my “Kat Von D Shade and Light Palette”, and using the black for the smokey eye effect. I am applying the black to the outer V, and blending this out, slowly building up the pigmentation.

4. I then am using the same palette and taking a lighter cream shade to apply this to my inner corners of my eyes, highlighting them and making them stand out more. I am then adding some finishing touches onto my eyes such as some mascara, a winged liner, and also adding a bit of the black eyeshadow underneath my eyes.

“Home is where your makeup stash is”

I also took a nude lipstick and applied this to my lips. I thought nude would be the best shade to ensure this look is not overly dramatic and that the lips do not overpower the eyes.

“Don’t let today be a waste of makeup”

I hope you guys enjoyed this extremely short and easy makeup tutorial. This is so beautiful for a night out or if you are feeling spontaneous, you can wear this during the day as well! Be sure to follow my other social media sites located on my home page for more updates on my latest blog posts! Have a great week guys!


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Dear Girl In An Abusive Relationship 


You fit in an 83% percentile category. I bet you wish that category was ones who have loving relationship and are respected as wives, mothers, and women. I wish I was lying dear girl in an abusive relationship, trust me. Sadly you were the vulnerable victim chosen to be tortured and your strength tested. Are you strong enough? This isn’t what I am asking YOU but I know you ask yourself this as soon as you wake up til when your puffy eyes close. Can you answer this? Better yet, I will help you answer that lingering question. I know you are. Remember the time when your grandpa passed on, and you were there every second for your family, or the time you started figuring out your life plan for yourself? That is called strength, and that is something you have and will always carry with you. But he makes you question your strength, and why is that? Because you’re a slut for talking to that other guy, or you’re a bitch just because? Do you honestly believe that? For one second , girl in an abusive relationship, picture me waving my magic wand over your life. Imagine him not there. Do you still think you’re that slut? I know you are probably thinking, “yes I am, I should not have even spoken to the guy”. You are your own person, you can speak to both guys and girls. You can be sociable instead of hiding in your room under those cold blankets. Wipe those tears away. I need you to find and help dig for that strength buried beneath you. I know you have it, you’re a beautiful girl nowhere near a slut, that I know. I miss you. I miss your smile and goofy laugh. Most importantly, I miss your free spirit, and outgoing personality. I remember always making each other laugh. Now I am the one trying to crack a smile from you, anything. I remember everything.


Dear girl in an abusive relationship,

Remember the time when you used to think so highly of yourself , that you didn’t need a man in your life. Remember now , how you sit there and think to yourself ,” why am I so stupid?”, or ” I don’t think I can do this on my own without him”. If you were stupid you would not have gotten to where you are today , you would not be that lovely girl hidden underneath those lies, and you have survived life without him before you met him. You can do things on your own. You went to appointments on your own, you went to school on your own, & you have your own friends. You are an independent person and you’re own person, he isn’t you. His name isn’t yours and he doesn’t have your strength, that’s the strength to not insult others, treat others with disrespect and betlittle people. You should be proud of who you are, I know I am. Even though she’s hidden, she will come out. In order for her to come out , you need to give yourself some credit. You’re not a failure for being that vulnerable victim. You’re not a failure for choosing the wrong one. And you’re not a failure for not changing your ways earlier. Today’s a new day. It’s time for YOU to shine. Today’s your day. Life is too short to stay stuck one other day in this life you did not wish upon. Life is too short to explain to your kids that daddy is not a nice man, and that you hope better for them. I know you want to show them everything in life, and to encourage their growth and development over time. You don’t need a man discouraging you, or even them for that matter. I know you would hurt inside seeing that. I know you don’t want them to go through what you did , so let’s change this. You and me together. Let’s get started on this journey one step at a time.  Those endless nights where you couldn’t sleep because you started to believe the names he would call you. Those days where you couldn’t spend time with family because he was jealous and wanted you for himself. Those days are gone. This is a new chapter and guess what? It’s not too late. It’s never too late. I want you to know I am proud that you have the courage to start this journey , even though you’re unsure. I don’t know where this path will take you but I promise you it will be better than the one you were on for years now. I promise. I know there are more cons in your relationship than pros, that you are certain. 


I just want to give you a few reminders before you start this journey . 

1) You are strong enough to take on any battle. You are getting your life on track, you have a job , you are here.

2) This journey may cause you numerous amounts of anxiety, anxiety which may doubt your decisions. Remember why you’re here , why you started this. Face your anxiety, this is about you not him.

3) Your body is your canvas and it’s yours. You do what you want with it , but don’t let someone claim it’s theirs. 

4) Your happiness is the only thing that matters. You need to put yourself before others and truly think about your needs and wants.

5) Noone in their right mind should belittle you , you’re an individual with a name not ” stupid” or ” faggot“. Remember that name on your birth certificate ? That’s you, not who he thinks you are you imagines you to be. 

6) Everyone is here to support you. Often we feel alone in these circumstances, that is never the case. You are never alone . There’s always a shoulder to cry on, a helping hand around the corner and ears to listen. 

7) It’s not too late to start a new life. Don’t live in the past , start fresh , you got this. When starting your new journey let go of your grudges and frustration, it’s time to let go.

8) You’re beautiful. Often we need to be reminded after someone destroys us mentally and physically that you’re beautiful on the inside and outside. For someone who offers so much to this world you deserve way more credit than that . That’s why I’m here. 


9) Think positively . You got this . I know your brain is full of negative thoughts at the moment, it’s probably overwhelming . Trying to have that positive mindset will help you along this journey , more than you know . 
10) F*** him. You’re better than him. You need to keep repeating this to yourself and this upbeat thoughts. You managed once without him, you can do it again.

Dear girl in an abusive relationship,

I am with you on this journey. I want you to understand that , and so are your friends and family. Make this change today , why wait another minute. Life is so short to let him waste YOUR minute . He’s not worth it . Let someone come into your life who treasures your dimples, the way you get nervous around big groups of people as he makes you feel comfortable, and the way you chuckle when you laugh. Let him take in all your flaws and treasure all your traits. Let him find you . He will trust me , he already told me he’s on his way , he will be there when you least expect it. Do you trust me? I know your trust issues are high , they have every right to be. But you can trust me when I say everything will be okay . You will be okay.